Over the years, my heart softened, and I was able to finally say, “Ok, now I get it. You are God, and I am not. You do not owe me anything. Everything is a gift… even what you withhold. I surrender.”
As I look back, I realize I needed to do some serious growing up, spiritually. The Lord graciously and patiently drew me to Himself. There was no magic formula. There were no sudden “ah-ha” moments or breakthroughs. But, over the course of several years, not only did I regain my health, but I drew nearer to the One who loves me more than I will ever comprehend this side of heaven.